Is it an attainable goal? Should it even be a goal? I think I could be happy with a structured life; the same job, the same man, the same holiday each year. Double-dating, dinner parties, pets, it all seem wonderfully comfortable. Then there’s the other side, the feeling of loss of possibilities. The restriction somehow. But also, that uncontrollable fear of fucking it up. Hard. When we build something, it can also be torn down and more often than not we (subconsciously) do the tearing down ourselves. Is it out of selfishness? It seems most people are able to let go of their individual ambition and live simply smothered under drudgery. But what if I’m an Epsilon wishing to be an Alpha? I know a guy (don’t we all) who has the luxury to do what he loves doing, doesn’t have to worry about money, he can be completely free to do whatever he wants and he’s still complaining about how life could be better. It’s something completely natural, we will always want something else than what we have. In that regard, you know it will never change. Why not chose drudgery; some recreational drugs, regular sex, poker night with the guys and just accept the fact that you cannot live your own life (as you wanted it) to the end. Very few people can. Despite all those inspirational slogans slapping us in the face wherever we look, we’d mostly just rather sit back with a beer then go out to chase our dreams. With all the daily crap we have to deal with, who has energy for that? Life is an uncomfortable cocktail party that no one wanted to attend in the first place. Some people are just standing closer to the bar than others.
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